I am so ready to bring sweet girl home. The last update we got just made me sad....her eyes just didn't seem to have the same sparkle they used to. I am sure it is me reading into things, but I just feel like she needs to be home. I know God is in control of this process, but I am aching to get her home. Trusting but longing. I so often don't allow myself to feel sadness or hurt because I can always find someone worse off than me. I feel like I just need to be thankful for where I am, and I am so blessed. But right now I want to allow myself to be sad and just plain tired of waiting. I'm not okay with the wait...I'm frustrated that there are babies stacking up in the government orphanages because Gladney can't move babies out of their care right now. And I'm frustrated that there are people who are longing to be parents to the parentless but can't seem to make it happen....that there are sweet kids going to bed at night yet again without a bedtime story and lots of hugs and kisses. I don't want that to ever be okay. I want my heart to hurt for the things that hurt God, and I don't want to be distracted by this crazy world. At the same time, I don't blame anyone. I know Gladney is doing everything possible, and I trust them completely. I choose to believe that everyone involved is working in the best interest of the kids and birth families there. And in a weird way I am thankful for the wait. There is something sweet about the longing, and it brings me back to prayer so often each day. He meets me there EVERY time.
